Monday, October 23, 2006

Do you ever just feel ....?

I am not even sure what word to put there. The last two weeks have been (in no particular order) scary and devastating and empty and chaotic and unproductive and busy and stressful and... and nothing even really happened. How is that for twisted? Nothing particularly out of the ordinary has happened at my house and I've been right here, plodding along. But all around me there is stress and heartbreak and just a steady stream of negativity. And I've been very yucky feeling (for lack of any real way to explain it). I love my husband, I love my kids, I love my church, my family, my friends and I love my God. But I feel cold and drained and unattached. Everything on the outside is going so smoothly (well, almost everything) but on the inside I feel like I'm watching someone else's life. Does that make any sense at all? And I know this is just a temporary thing and that I'll get through it, I'm just not sure how I go about getting through it. Anyone out there with a good swift kick in the pants for me? I 'd appreciate it:)

7 comments:

Dawn C said...

Nope, no swift kicks here. I've got a delishhhhhus cup o' hot tea to share with you. I've got time to get together to gab. :) I've got prayers that I will pray over you. But, as for kicks, ZERO kicks here.

Sweetie, I will pray that Father will show you what He is working in your heart - as what you are describing is generally a new work being birthed in me. :? HOLD ON Toots - you may be in for a wild ride. :)

Love ya!!

Holly said...

Shannon! Yes! You described exactly how I have felt! WOW! "Cold, drained and unattached!"

Reach back out for Him, Shannon!

Love you, baby!

Shannon said...

I love y'all! Thank you!

Mrs. U said...

Man, I have surely felt this way MANY times. You've described it well. The ONLY thing that "fixes" me is time with Jesus and LOTS of it!! Get in the Word and stay there. :) Memorize Scripture and hide it deep in your heart.

He is walking with you.

His,
Mrs. U

Jayleigh said...

I go through this sometimes too. It's like the evil one can't wait to make you feel bad about your good life and all the blessings God has given you.

Whenever I get to feeling this way, my NUMBER ONE priority after praying, is to get out and do something for someone else. Really the quickest way to stop mully-grubbing (my mom's phrase) is to stop focusing on yourself and your feelings about your busy-ness.

**hugs** HTH

Sarah said...

Thank you, Shannon for your openness and honesty. I stumbled upon your blog through Choosing Home and I'm so glad I did! You talk about some of the trials that I've experienced and sometimes feel so alone in. So, I thank you and pray for you! May the Lord bless and keep you!
~Sarah Lee

Shannon said...

It's so good to know we're not alone, isn't it? Thanks for stopping by, y'all!