Thursday, January 04, 2007

A bad day that could've been so much worse

I got some bad news at the doctor today about Jack. He is developing fine as far as milestones and motor skills, but he is too, too small. Not quite 15 lbs at a year. With all of his relux and allergies, he just has not been able to gain weight. SO his doctor and I talked and talked about various ways to plump him up and, while she's very nice, I left feeling guilty and scared and like the world's worst mother.
But that was actually not even the worst thing to happen to me today, because Jack can be helped. With meds and a very determined mommy, he will gain some weight! No the worst thing that happened to me today didn't really happen to me at all. I was a witness to a horrible wreck. Sitting at a red-light, just me and Jack in the car, I watched and did nothing as several people were severely, if not fatally, injured. I watched as an expedition flipped over and landed ON the car next to me. Many people were on hand to help and I stayed until I filled out a report and was sure there was nothing I could do to help. I prayed. I don't know if I've ever felt as helpless as I did today.
And yet I have so much to thank God for tonight. I'm thankful that I could pray for the people in those cars. I'm thankful that the ambulance and police were there almost instantly. I'm thankful that we were not hurt, that Levi and Brenna weren't with me to witness the accident. I'm thankful that Jack has a doctor to go to and that we can buy medicine to help him. Lord, I am so grateful that it wasn't us in that wreck and I pray that you will be with those who were.

6 comments:

Sarah said...

Shannon...with a baby in the car, no one, absolutely no one would expect you to leave him to help. You did the right thing by praying for those involved. Your priority is Jack and you took very good care of him! You are a good Mommy.

Praise the Lord the two of you are safe!

Shannon said...

Sarah - Thank you for saying that. I did feel so guilty for not jumping out, but police and EMTs were on the scene literally in two minutes. And I read this morning that at least one of the people involved is okay - minor injuries.
I am so grateful today that we weren't hurt. It really was just the hand of God.

Donna Boucher said...

Your story gave me chills and tears.

I'm thankful you are fine. What a scary thing.

I pray when ambulances drive by me and I get teary...

Kristen said...

I am so sorry, Shannon! How terrible!!

I am glad you were there to pray, and that you guys weren't involved in the accident. ((HUG))

Shannon said...

Thanks y'all. It turned out I knew one of the drivers - she has kids the same age as mine and they were MIRACULOUSLY able to walk away from the accident. God is so good!

reneegrace said...

Shannon,

I accidentally popped over here from Dawn's :)

Just wanted to relate to you. My eldest, Keenan, was a preemie, had terrible reflux, they used that AWFUL term "failure to thrive" which made me feel like a real winner...

AND he is doing GREAT!!! He is 7. He eats like a horse. and is as skinny as could be. and healthy. God bless - your kiddo might be small, but he LOOKS great and healthy and SO SO cute!! :)